Its Never Easy to Say Goodbye

While I like to try and keep my blog as upbeat as possible, today I want to address a very serious issue that has recently affect me and many of the people close to me. This is issue is one that is all too common and should not be. It is one that needs even more awareness and support than ever. This issue is suicide, and here's my story.
This summer during July a friend of mine committed suicide. He was an amazing person: he was hilarious,caring, and loved by everyone, which has made it even harder to understand why this happened. Just thinking about what he must have been going through to do this make me cry.
For me the incident didn't set in right away, and it wasn't until the first day of school when I realized I'd never see him again. This idea has now become one that I have now been struggling with ever since. As I said, his presence was one of a kind, and having to accept that I will never get to see it again makes me cry. What made the pain of his death even worse was seeing what it did to his really close friends. His friends, who have always been good kids, are having such trouble coping with his sudden, unexplained death that they have  gone on a scary path trying to numb the pain. Which got me thinking, if his close friends are this upset, imagine how his own family must feel. The saddest part of everything though is that no one will every get to say their finally goodbye, and everyone is left questioning what they could have done differently to prevent this tragedy.
So this ones to you big guy. You will be forever missed. RIP.

 ****For anyone who ever feels as my friend did please talk to someone. No one should deserve to go through that kind of pain, espcalliy on their own. If something is making you so upset that it is pushing you to contemplate death it is obviously important. Don't take the pain lightly or feel embrassed to talk about it. You are not alone. Many others feel this way. And if you don't feel comfortable talking to someone you know, there are other resources out there: school counseluers, suicide hotlines, or even community health centers. So please, please talk to someone because you don't deserve to go through that. You are important.
***** For those of who have ever had to deal with a suicide, you know how hard it is to deal with and my heart goes out to you.